You know it's wrong, you know it's not for you and you want to get out of the lifestyle?
You are worried about what your family will think. (First you falling out the cupboard, proclaiming your eternal love to a same sex partner and the next thing you saying, uhm suprise I'm not gay.)
People have been gossiping about you for weeks, months even years. So much that you rather not visit your home town of.fear that you will hear all the things they said, about you etc.
Your friends will accept your choices?
Some things I had to deal with when I realised I was never in a closet but only busy with some experimenting.
Firstly I got as far as possible away from the lifestyle. I moved a 12000km back to my home town, faced my fears and now I'm in harmony.
Secondly I didn't explain myself, I just lived my life. I did not go out in the world saying :" look at me I am cured from the homosexual lifestyle
" . I actually don't share my story, cause I'm not ready.
Thirdly I started to care about me and the mess I became. I got into shape, lost about 16kg and I started to further my career.
Fourthly I lost my "friends". My gay friends saw me as some incredible threat, my straight friends started feeling threatened aabout there boyfriends and some even thought I'm busy with some sex trick. You will loose your friends, but you will make beter ones, real friends.
You are who you are! You made your mistakes, it's human nature to make them.
Forgive yourself, speak to God, tell hom your story. So that it can become your history and start building a future.
All you have to do is pray, want to change and put everything into it!
You can do it!
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