Friday, January 13, 2012

Life in Progress




As a small beam of light shines through the clouds touches her face, it lights up her "snotty" green eyes, a smile breaks.

"Wow!" The light start forming a small golden curve on the clouds, only kings are allowed to see this.

Above the golden curve a small shimmer of light appears, the shimmer lights up the sky.

Her face lights up with a golden shimmer, her smile lites up the sky. Speechless I stare.

a few seconds, a few minutes and the whole world light up. Muizenberg becomes alive.

The sun has risen...

Sunday, April 24, 2011

27 Things I love about you


1. I love those eyes
2. I love the naughty smile
3. I love the passion you have
4. I love your fake laugh
5. I love the way you play pool like a duck
6. I love the way you need me to keep you warm
7. I love the way you hold on to me on my bike
8. I love your voice
9. I love the warmth of your touch
10. I love the way you moan about small things
11. I love all our road trips and adventures
12. I love the way you sometimes snor
13. I love the fact that you always dream
14. I love the way you lie about certain things
15. I love it when you steal my socks
16. I love it when you want to try something new
17. I love the way you cook (KFC and all)
18. I love the fact that you always try
19. I love you when you lazy
20. I love you for always wanting to sleep late
21. I love it when you make me miss you
22. I love it when you are close
23. I love your music taste
24. I love your restruarant choice
25. I love your little hidden suprises
26. I love the fact that you always up for a goodtime
27. I love you for just being you

Nuwe dorings op die horison

Hi daar
Ek was stil vir 'n ruk, het myself 'n bietjie reggeruk my kop agter mekaar gekry en wel ek is terug op die brug. Begin weer my ou self raak, besig aan die gang, dink meer as gewoonlik, maak vrede wat kom wat gaan en wel waar ek is.

Soms is waar jy is die plek waar jy die minste wil wees, maar die meeste moet wees!

Ek sien nuwe dinge in my toekoms. Soos:
Wou nie kinders he , nou oorweeg ek dit.
Wou nie gay wees, nou aanvaar ek dit. (Moeilik soms nogsteeds)
Wou nie erken hoe pateties ek soms kan voorkom, sien dit nou sonder twyfel.

Ek begin groot raak,leer en miskien LEEF!

Friday, November 12, 2010

BRANDED

I'm branded as a CHEATER
"Once a cheater always a cheater":I hear people say
That makes me feel so much 'better'
Everytime I try to change, everytime it happens again.
Everytime I set my heart on that person and everytime I dissapoint.

With you I feel its different
With you I can maybe think about things, but when you look at me. Its over...
Those thoughts and doubts dissapear.

Your eyes makes my world go round
Your lips makes my emotions run wild
Your skin makes my taste buds go wild
Your ways makes me fall in love with you everyday.

Friday, October 22, 2010

feel numb

Anti Depressant Tablets are the PITS.
Been on them for a few days, and I feel lost, deurmekaar and in sleep permanently.
What's the fun in that?
I feel incompetant with them in my system and they take such a long time to get out of my system.
There is really no fun and games.
Feel disconnected from the world
With no emotion
No compassion
No feeling
Just a empty soul swifting from one thing to another.

Really understand why I am on the tablets
Just don't know if they really work
Feel numb

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

ANTI DEPRESSANT

Scary stuff. First time in my life that I go to the doctor and the doctor puts me on a ongoing dosage of anti depressants. Have never really needed it.

With this he measured my blood pressure which is 152/105 that's very scary, my bp is usually 132/72. He wants to monitor that.

So, how is it going with me?
Well I got a crazy ass guy who fallows me around, phones me everyday, phones my friends and family. Talks so much kak that he starting to believe himself. And in the end he is ruining his daughters future and making sure he distroys a few while he is busy with this.

My ex girl friend helped him because she was scorned. But now he is gona mess up her career because he tackle's me on fb. Which will link us and then everybody will know she is gay and her minisrty could be in its tjops.
How did she help him? She gave him info about me, gave him numbers to phone etc.
Now she is gona shoot herself in the foot. Very grown up, very inteligent.
Luckily that's not my problem.

What is he trying to achieve?
Well, I'm in a thing with his soon to be ex wife. This is a new thing. But he wants me to back off.
I dnt want to.
Now he wants to ruine my life by leaving messages to strangers about me. I don't have real friends or family, so he is actually just waisting his time.
You need to have something to be able to loose something. My family has never been close and well those who believe all the shit can go to hell.

He wants to break me. Wrong way to go about it.
Only way to break me, is by hurting me physically.

You need emotions to get emotionally eina
You need to be inconstant contact to get mentally abused.
But he is trying, waisting so much time.
He also wants to hurt me physically.

Went to see a lawyer today. Never thought I would do that.
Opened a file against him. Feel bad for his daughter who is going to have to life with this.
My life is more important

The anti-dep is doing there job well. I'm so chilled.

But I'm getting tired of empty threats

Thursday, October 14, 2010

kos vir my siel

Soms as dinge moeilik gaan gee 'n mens die dinge wat jou die meeste genot op.
Soms laat gaan jy van jou passie
Soms is daar nie plek vir passie en seer nie
Soms verdwyn die liefde vir iets

En dan na paar weke, na 'n paar maande skrik jy wakker
Kom jy agter 'n issue is weg
Die issue wat jou passie gevat het
Die issue wat die seer veroorsaak het is weg
En dan kom die passie terug en die honger

Daai honger maak jou lus vir doen wat jou gelukkig maak

Ek het kos nodig vir my siel
Ek moet tyd maak vir my passie
Ek is honger